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Understanding myself
Cry...
Late in the night... Can't sleep... Can't breath normally...
Heartbeat so loud... Uncontrollable...
My eyes can't see clearly...
Tears filled my eyes... Full... Drop...
I finally cry it out...
Cry won't make things better but at least it relieve my heartaches..
Why I cry??
I never know that the magic of the words can be so strong...
When you're happy, a couple of words can make you sad...
When you're down, a couple of words can make you forget about your sadness...
This feeling been keep inside my heart for.........
I didn't count it or rather you say I don't dare to count it...
Since you been asking me... And since I really feel so terrible...
I never say this to anyone... No one...
I thought I can keep this in my heart until I tell her...
But I think I cant... I just can't take it anymore...
I feel so uncomfortable when I am with her and she just do the things that I really hate...
I don't like that feeling but I cant help... Yes! She is my best friend...
But yet she is a friend that come from a world that totally different from me...
Do you watch movie? Bad guy and good guy?? I didn't mean that she kill people or what...
But to me, she is a bit too rude... Too rude when she talk...
Sometimes, she brake the school rules... Okay! I pretend that I didn't saw it...
But it's hard to pretend too many times.. This is one of the reason I cry...
Another is both of you had give me a lot advises and TOTALLY melt my heart with yours words...
"I love you!! No matter what you still got me..." "Cheer up! Come on baby! You can do it!!"
Another more is am I suitable for the Oscar award for the best actress?? I mean I found that I am ULTRA fade...
Whenever I am sad, I will start my acting career...
Pretend to be happy... Pretend to laugh... Pretend to make joke... Pretending is now a part of my body...
Oh gosh! Who actually I am?? Rosie? Julia? Nicole? Can't find an answer...
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When you feel you totally "bei ta han"... Just cry it out like a baby... You'll find that it really works...
Labels: Feelings
“I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it's true I'm here, and I'm just as strange as you.”
“This is how you do it: you sit down at the keyboard and you put one word after another until its done. It's that easy, and that hard.”
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