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Today, my friend asked me a question...
A question that I don't know how to answer...
A question that I don't know what is the answer...
"Are you really happy or actually sad when you laugh as big as you can?"
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"I don't know" was my answer...
Sometime, I really do feel happy when I laugh until my smile touched my ear...
Sometime, it's hard to describe...
It's like laughing calming me down when I'm sad...
Sometime, it's act as a protective wall...
To protect me... or more accurately...
It's to prevent questioning by friends...
Sometime, it's just to warming up the scene...
Sometime, I use a smile to maintain my friendship...
Like whenever I quarrel with my friends, smile will solve the problem...
What is actually a smile means to me?
I really don't know...
It's complicated...
And yet...
I wish I can prob the answer...
When I try to find the answer...
Smile disappeared...
Tears, take over smile's place...
Wish to drop it all out...
But there is still something in my heart...
I don't wish anyone know actually that I'm sad...
But I know... They always know it...
Somehow, I'm not willing to being sad in front of them...
And I think...
That's why....
I'm always laughing everywhere...
Just to hidden my sadness...
Deep inside my closed heart...
A question that I don't know how to answer...
A question that I don't know what is the answer...
"Are you really happy or actually sad when you laugh as big as you can?"
............
"I don't know" was my answer...
Sometime, I really do feel happy when I laugh until my smile touched my ear...
Sometime, it's hard to describe...
It's like laughing calming me down when I'm sad...
Sometime, it's act as a protective wall...
To protect me... or more accurately...
It's to prevent questioning by friends...
Sometime, it's just to warming up the scene...
Sometime, I use a smile to maintain my friendship...
Like whenever I quarrel with my friends, smile will solve the problem...
What is actually a smile means to me?
I really don't know...
It's complicated...
And yet...
I wish I can prob the answer...
When I try to find the answer...
Smile disappeared...
Tears, take over smile's place...
Wish to drop it all out...
But there is still something in my heart...
I don't wish anyone know actually that I'm sad...
But I know... They always know it...
Somehow, I'm not willing to being sad in front of them...
And I think...
That's why....
I'm always laughing everywhere...
Just to hidden my sadness...
Deep inside my closed heart...
Labels: Feelings
“I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it's true I'm here, and I'm just as strange as you.”
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